Spring Is Coming
Spring is coming, and spring is technically here! So... a lot has happened. Honestly, it's been such life changing times... I hardly know how or when to post to my blog. I think I've been having too much fun... ;)
Jake has moved to NYC and it has changed everything. He has been here since February 22nd. To write: "I am happy and everything is lovely," would be an understatement. It's been fun figuring out how to do things together in NYC. We celebrated being in love for 3 years March 14th. We had dinner at Chez Josephine (a Josephine Baker themed restaurant) and everything about it was a dream. Jake is training at a very cool restaurant/bar in midtown area, so far it seems like a good fit.
I used to be nervous about practicing my singing in our small studio in Oakland with Jake home. He has been so supportive though, and I am getting over my nervousness of possible squawking while practicing new things ;) It doesn't hurt that he's my biggest fan.
I have FINALLY had an audition that I walked away from smiling and proud. I cannot begin to explain how huge that is for me. Once I finally started being seen by casting directors (and not turned away after typing) I was so nervous to actually sing my breath support would go all wonky. After a few decent but nothing special auditions- I am getting my confidence back. Thank heavens. After this most recent audition I was asked to do a double pirouette turned out, then from parallel in my La Ducas. I landed the first one perfectly, but parallel was a slightly wobbly landing. The director seemed pleased with me and it just felt good. I am not a perfect performer... but the best thing was that I felt like I did a good job and also was myself. That seems like the most simple statement but to leave an audition feeling that way is so important. The audition game here is no joke. Sometimes it feels like you're going into battle against gorgeous, ombre haired, La Duca wearing women, and of course the most fierce, fit, and handsome gay men you've ever seen. They will trample you if you're not sure who you are or what you're doing there. It's such a high stress environment you have to realize everyone is a heightened version of themselves and their emotions. Especially musical theatre people, we can be quite intense. I have decided that I deserve to be at every audition I go to and to focus on myself. I'm inspired by these warriors that stretch next to me in the waiting rooms... after all we're all doing the same thing there.
Most things have been lovely recently, but as always, life comes with it's tough times too. On St. Patrick's day, March 17th I have officially been living without my dearest Father for 5 years. It's almost too strange and upsetting to accept. I went to an audition in honor of him.
I am excited for Spring but also horrified for Summer. Thank you for reading- I'm looking forward to more posts in April!
xxoo,
Is
Jake has moved to NYC and it has changed everything. He has been here since February 22nd. To write: "I am happy and everything is lovely," would be an understatement. It's been fun figuring out how to do things together in NYC. We celebrated being in love for 3 years March 14th. We had dinner at Chez Josephine (a Josephine Baker themed restaurant) and everything about it was a dream. Jake is training at a very cool restaurant/bar in midtown area, so far it seems like a good fit.
I used to be nervous about practicing my singing in our small studio in Oakland with Jake home. He has been so supportive though, and I am getting over my nervousness of possible squawking while practicing new things ;) It doesn't hurt that he's my biggest fan.
I have FINALLY had an audition that I walked away from smiling and proud. I cannot begin to explain how huge that is for me. Once I finally started being seen by casting directors (and not turned away after typing) I was so nervous to actually sing my breath support would go all wonky. After a few decent but nothing special auditions- I am getting my confidence back. Thank heavens. After this most recent audition I was asked to do a double pirouette turned out, then from parallel in my La Ducas. I landed the first one perfectly, but parallel was a slightly wobbly landing. The director seemed pleased with me and it just felt good. I am not a perfect performer... but the best thing was that I felt like I did a good job and also was myself. That seems like the most simple statement but to leave an audition feeling that way is so important. The audition game here is no joke. Sometimes it feels like you're going into battle against gorgeous, ombre haired, La Duca wearing women, and of course the most fierce, fit, and handsome gay men you've ever seen. They will trample you if you're not sure who you are or what you're doing there. It's such a high stress environment you have to realize everyone is a heightened version of themselves and their emotions. Especially musical theatre people, we can be quite intense. I have decided that I deserve to be at every audition I go to and to focus on myself. I'm inspired by these warriors that stretch next to me in the waiting rooms... after all we're all doing the same thing there.
Most things have been lovely recently, but as always, life comes with it's tough times too. On St. Patrick's day, March 17th I have officially been living without my dearest Father for 5 years. It's almost too strange and upsetting to accept. I went to an audition in honor of him.
I am excited for Spring but also horrified for Summer. Thank you for reading- I'm looking forward to more posts in April!
xxoo,
Is
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